frustration.

171.9....what???? I don't understand, I barely eat anything and if I do it hasn't been more than about 700 cals in nearly a month and I have been exercising pretty much every other day burning from 400-800 calories and I am going up rather than down? I hope to god I am not getting muscle weight, I may need to lay off some of the exercising. I know about when your body goes into starvation mode and just stores all the fat but surely that only lasts for so long? Since I have started really lowering my calories and exercising regularly I have lost a total of 8 lbs but it seems to be sticking between 168-171..why isn't it going down. It makes me so frustrated when I fast and then I havn't lost which just makes me what to binge, I am fat already so might aswell go and fill my face with crap.

C came round today, the boy I told you about yesterday, he was only here for about an hour as he bought a new car and it was near where I lived so he stopped in. We just chatted for quite a while but then lay on the bed cuddling for ages, I mean he was proper holding me cuddling. Surely you wouldn't do that to just a friend? Ahh I don't know I need to forget about him and concerntrate on losing all this weight.

I have decided I am not going to post any more blogs until I get down to 165 so I may be gone a while girls, hopefully not though.

I will still read all of your blogs though and support you..stay strong girls hopefully I'll be back soon.

Thin is beautiful, but even thinner is perfection ♥