this is going to be hard.

I really wasn't looking forward to this lemon detox diet as I'm not a fan of lemon or maple syrup so I stayed in my room till 2pm today to delay me having to have some but eventually I went to the kitchin and made me some. And....urgh. Not a very nice taste attt all..to be honest all you can really taste is the sugar in the syrup which isn't very nice....I really do not know how I am meant to drink this about 6 or 7 times a day! Let the fun begin! I made mine with cold water though so I think the next one I'll make with hot water, see if that makes it any more tollerable.

But I am determined to try and stick it out for as long as I can and hopefully see results.

Hope everyones doing okay and doing well with their goals :)

xxx

one day turns into the next.

Okay so i didn't get to start my master cleanse today, I totally forgot that I was going out for dinner with my sister...dammmn. I made sure I didn't eat anything all day because I know the food at TGI's is full on junk food. I skipped the starters and then had a chicken linguine thing..i only ate half of it though as it was soo filling and I just felt sick eating it.

Tomorrow I am going to start the master cleanse....going to start exercising more as well, going for a run in the evenings, I should really join the gym again, it's just so expensive where I live though!

The price it costs to be thin ay.

xxx

I'm going to do this.

Right, I am not really sure why I have made this? I think it helps when you write things down, helps to get everything out and writing in diaries never work because I know what my mum is like sniffing around.

Where do I start..well I have a huge issue with how I look and what I weigh and have done for so long. I've found it so hard though to motivate myself into actually kicking all the fat off, I begin to, but then it soon finds it way back to me soon enough. I fast, I try fad diets, Mia becomes my best friend when I know I have eaten too much, I check calories on every single thing, I am obsessed with food and my weight and all I want is to be skinny and be beautiful.

I am going to start the master cleanse tomorrow, or some people call it the lemonade diet. You don't eat anything and just drink maple syrup mixed with lemon juice, caynenne pepper and water. I just hope it will work and it will give me the push I need in the right direction..wish me luck.

It was today that something clicked in me, I'm not too sure what but it is as if my brain has told me 'this is it, you've got to do something about how you look' and I am determined to. I want to be skinny. I want to be skinny. I want to be skinny. And I will be skinny. Whatever it takes...

Height - 177 cm.