motivation.

Thin enough to float away ♥
I am never going to get 'O' back until I am thin. Until I have lost all this fat that is clinging on to me. And I want him back..I need him back. I need to feel the way I feel when I am with him. Nobody understands. Everyone lectures me that he is not what I need, that I am being taken for a mug (he has a gf..a superskinny blonde gf)...but they don't get it, they don't understand how he makes me feel. Two years on and he still gives me butterflies everytime we talk, makes me feel something I have never felt with any other guy..surely that must mean something? They tell me to let him go but I can't, I physically cannot. I will get him back one day .. when I am thin and worthy of him.....if love isn't the key movtivation then what is.

Sooo I have decided to try out the lemon dextox diet agaain..my mum was against it last time but do you know what, I don't care. I have bought a new bottle of the syrup since my mum threw away my last one....she can really think again if she considers losing me another £40! Ive just finishd my first cup of the day and you know what, I actually enjoyed it! The last time i did this, well attempted this I could not stand it but thats because I was doing it with just cold water but today I have used hot water boiled in the kettle and it was lovely :) .. fingers crossed this is gonna do something! I decided to give it a go aagain after reading it on A Journey to Bones blog....I'll tell you what people you should follow her, she and her blog are amazing :) http://ajourneytobones.blogspot.com

BUT ... the scales have gone from the kitchen I noticed this morning,,I havnt weighed myself in about a week but wanted to know my weight before I started this (my mum has her slimming world scaless in the kitchen, they are gooood so I only really use those)....so then I went to my bathroom to use the crappy ones, anything is better then nothing BUT they wernt there either?! ..I looked in the family bathroom,,no, my mums bathroom, no? Where the hell are the scales!!! Hmmmmm.

The weather here is horribbble today so here is some summer thinspo for you all :)