Afraid to say I have seemed to have got into the cycle I see a lot of you girls get into also..the dreaded binging and purging cycle. The past week or so that is all I seem to have been doing and I need to knock it on the head fast. I havnt weighed myself in a week and I don't want to because I can tell I have not lost..if anything I've gained and I would rather not face that reality in numbers.
Since the last message I've been speaking to my ex quite a lot and I don't know whether that's good or bad. I love talking to him and id rather have him to talk to then not having him in my life at all but am I just digging my own grave here? I don't want to hurt like I did before..like I still do..but I still can't let go of the thought I may still get him back..I just need to sort myself out first and keep thinking thin. Nobodys going to want me whilst looking like I do.
I found some out pictures of a family holiday in 2006 and I actually didn't think I looked bad in a bikini..I had a flat stomach and it made me think I have 16 weeks to my holiday to tenerife and I want to look ok in a bikini again..I know I probably won't look that great in only 16 weeks but hopefully it will be a start.
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I wanna be in the mountains
4 weeks ago
16 weeks is a lot of time - you can definitely do some serious losing! We're here to support you, good luck and think thin!
ReplyDeleteno you are not digging your own grave, just see where it goes... and 16 weeks is plenty of time, just like birdie said. and from just reading ur blogs, u seem to have so much will-power (unlike me), so i'm confident that u can make it. /xo
ReplyDelete16 weeks is plenty of time! i know you can do it, and look amazing for your holiday! as long as you stay on track, you'll be able to lose loads. :)
ReplyDeletedon't worry too much about the b&p cycle. i know it's not healthy, bu at least if you're purging, you're not actually putting on those calories.
don't give up just yet, honey, you can do it!
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